"tingin mo kaya mo yan mag-isa?"

that was the very line my professor shouted at my face. i was super scolded because i was not able to send copies of my work to my other groupmates. the hell, as if naman na babasahin nga nila yung gawa ko at pagaaksayahan nila ng panahong i-print yun. they were asked questions about that fu**ing paper and their answers were so non sense. and i was to take the blame. good thing Kuya P was there to defend me. beacuse i know we were both thinking the very same thought about my 3 groupmates. we both know that they never cared about our paper. bull****!


yesterday, i was just being cool. i was hurt, but i did not show dissapoinment and anger. until i saw our professor and i was with edmy. i can't help myself, i told edmy parts of the story. she was mad too. when i was telling her about it, i was also thinking how could she do it to me. anyway, i know may kasalanan rin naman ako. but.. nah, forget about it. andito na rin naman ako sa harap ng computer, ginagawa ulit yung papel namin. wala naman akong choice eh. para rin naman sa grupo namin toh. naumpisahan na, ititigil ko pa ba?


i'm not being mabait. i just really have to. inako ko naman yung responsibility in the first place.
chaka napagalitan na ako. duwag na ako kung aatras pa ako, napahiya na ako eh. itutuloy ko na lang.

i want to prove to YOU that I CAN.
i know you have expected so much.
i'm sorry i wasn't able to be the one
whom you THOUGHT i can be.
but, i will try.